I don't think you would be reading this post, but i just want you to know that i miss you. I wonder how you're doing now. Are you still with him? Do you still go on diets? Are you still saving up for an iphone? Everytime i have fights with people in my dg or whatever, you would be there to back me up, you were one of those friends whom i could sms or call late @ night and like know that you'd still be awake and that you'd be there for me. But now, you don't even go for services, you don't even contact me, you won't be going for camp, cause your attendance is not enough, and even if it is, i bet you won't even wanna go too. Everytime during church camp, when i not feeling well or upset or what, you would be there for me, talk to me, cheer me up and all. Remember how we ganged up with kylie and gang to disturb *ahem*? With the snores and the loud breathing and the coughs. How we'd secretly text each other during services in camp, even though it's not allowed. You were always free when i asked you out. But now, it seems like you're never ever free when i ask you out. You used to confide in me and to just vent things out on me, but now, you don't even contact me. We used to sms or text like everyday, then slowly, it became like maybe 3 days a week? Then maybe like 1 day a week? Then once every few weeks, but now, we don't even do so, not even once every few weeks. I just want you to know that what you're feeling right now, i do understand. You're loved, you are, but it's just that you can't see it. I mean look around you, you have many friends who loves you, they care for you, but you're not aware of their existence. And who cares if the whole world hates you? I don't, God doesn't, and that's enough, more than enough. You're alright just as you are, you don't need no make-up, no revealing clothes, no boys around you, no crimes, no piercings, no hi-tech items, no pretty accessories, no branded items, nothing, all you need is to open yourself up to the Lord, and i'm sure, He'll change you from the inside out. You're really precious to me, and i don't wanna lose you just like that. I hope you'll be back soon, and i'll be praying, for this day to come. And when it does come, i promise you, nobody would ever make you feel the way you did. And then you'll realise 'it was just a nightmare'. Remember how we'll go shopping together? How we tried to ton together, just so we could catch a glimpse of the sunrise first thing in the morning before we go for camp briefing. How you'll introduce a book to me if it's nice then i'll go get it also then we'll compete and see who finishes the book first. How we'll like try to bring the same bag to camp. How you'll come to my house and pester me to cook you your all time favourite korean noodles. I'm sorry for not being there for you at times where you needed me to. I just realised how we're so near yet so far. Remember how you would take mrt with me to aljunied cause you don't like the smell of the purple line mrt. How you'll call me while you're walking home cause you're scared. How i'll play with your itouch like nobody's business. How you'll beg me to ask my bf to download games into your itouch for free. How you'll complain to me about this and that. And how you'd save up like nuts just to get the things you wished for. And how you would go on diets, which flopped. And complain you're fat when you're actually so not. How my sis would call you happy birthday pink shorts. We just have so many fond memories together. And i wish we would have more. I've never told you this, but i seriously admire you, for being so strong. For having the perseverence to starve and just save up like crazy to get the things you want. God won't forsake anyone who has received Him, He'll lead you back, that's one thing for sure. But it's just a matter of time. But it's ok, as long as you come back some day or another, the wait is worthwhile. Jesus loves you, and so do I. I have so much more to say, but i shall stop here.

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