I thought going out would make me feel better. But instead I'm felt miserable. My slippers caused blisters to my feet. It hurt so badly. And then i thought of you. Wondering how would you handle the situation if you were with me. And then like when i bought stuffs, there wasn't anyone there to hold my shopping bags for me. And when i went to the toilet, i had to tug my shopping bag along, nobody was there to hold my bag and wait for me outside the toilet. When i was otw back, there wasn't anyone to text me or call me to accompany me. I mean there was, but it was just different. And there wasn't anyone i could hold on to, in fear that when the bus brakes, i would fall. And like there was no shoulder for me to lean on. Not anymore. And nobody to send me to my doorstep. I had to walk all the way home alone. Nobody would make me feel like a princess again. Nobody would pat me to sleep when i stubbornly wanted to stay up even though I'm tired. I was thinking so much till i accidentally cut my finger with a scissors while cutting the tag off my shoe. Dramatic eh? This bee was following me just now. And i got reminded of you again. The other time a bee followed me, you said you were it. Everyday i have to do things to tire myself out so i would have lesser difficulty trying to sleep. Why isit so hard to get you out of my mind? Jesus! I need your help here. Bye.

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